Can you picture my prophecy?

I try to keep my head up, and still keep from gettin wet up.
You know it's funny when it rains it pours. I try and find my friends, but they're blowin in the wind.
Change, shit
I guess change is good for any of us, who are willing to accept the change. The real question is do you want that change and is that change worth fighting for. Hell can;t trust no one, everyone has got this thing where they only care for themselves, they all come back one they realize that. Why is it that people are like this can't they see deep down inside of themselves what they're doing, screwing over one person, a good, kind person. Just to get something for yourself. Why is it that no matter how hard we try someone is always there to bring you down. Never changes and it's always the people you lease expect. This will be a mean blog but shit I don't care. I've learned there's only one person I can trust. My brother, whys that, well maybe its to deal with us being family, or wait hell no, cause he isn't no backstabbing person. Everyone's looking out for their selves, something to benefit them, they think they can push you around hell don't stand for that. Maybe its the rainy weather outside that gets to me, or maybe its just a feeling of getting tired of backstabbing people.
First off if ya make a promise keep it, second don't screw someone over just cause ya got a new boyfriend or girlfriend that in time will play you in their little game too.
You say you'll always be there but you know all to well that was a lie.
One day all those people will see, you see I'm not jealous, just paranoid.
What have you become when you make a bet that considers using people, yet you think you're in your right mind, hell, you gotta be pretty dumb to still believe that they'll change for ya cause baby once a playa always a playa and uhh, I know they like to beat ya down a lot When you come around the block but please don't cry, dry your eyes, never let up
Forgive but don't forget, keep your head up.
I get what I have to do. Get money, evade bitches, evade tricks and basically just represent for myself.
Now who's to say if I'm right or wrong?
Who can I trust in this cold world?
My attitude got me walking solo

People are DUMB

I can't believe how many people go around posting shirtless pictures, its dumb I mean who in the hell wants to see that on myspace, facebook, and what not like honestly they have websites for that shit, sides half these people post fake pictures just so they can get girls lame ass shit.

Grow a pair and don't lie to get damn girls and what not.

Moving sidewalks, I don't see under my feet

Aww I feel great, it is 4 in the morning but boy do I feel good. Two more weeks a school left I'm excited, a little upset that the Vegas camp got canceled but I will live.
New hair new do.
Seen X-men again, better second time around, also seen Night at the Museum 2, funny as hell.

I decided I don't like twitter, dumbest thing ever created.

Summer soon, then drivers' license damn summer birthdays suck.

I have been happy lately, I don't know why maybe it is just the person on my mind, who knows.
Started talking to some old friends feels pretty dang good!

Haven't blogged for a long time.

Life is Fantastic, not life is pretty boring, someone UN-bore me please?!?

My dreams are no longer realities I feel like I'm on top of a mountain!

Summer here I come!

"Your eyes see right through,that's all they do"

"Woke up to that familiar feelin', starin' at a unfamiliar ceilin'
Still got ya jeans on but you're topless, headache and the stomach feels nauseous
Grab your shirt off the bedroom floor, and try to recollect the night before
How'd ya get from the bar to this mattress, and when ya got here then what happened?
And where's the who that lives here in this house wanna figure out how'd ya get here
But the though got cut by nature find the bathroom the gut got anger
Here it comes can't avoid it ain't the first time throwin up in a strange toilet
Anyone else would leave but you you crawled back to the bed and fell back asleep"


Sundays are always so boring, nothing ever to do. That is usually how every day is though, you have those fun days then the boring days.
I feel like I can relate to a lot of stuff, how people act,feel and think. I finally have it in me to realize who I want to talk to and who I don't want to. I still think male cheerleaders that quit wrestling for cheer and say cheer is harder are still D-bags, doubt they will ever out live that :D.
Besides the matter I had the best weekend, that dance concert was kinda boring I'm not going to lie. Wendys afterwards with just me, brett, steph and zac was worth it though. Helped my real mom move into my grandmas at like one in the morning that was a exciting way to end friday. Saturday hung out with an amazing person that was fun too!
Friday day was fun to didn't goto fourth with Carlos and Zac, instead went and swang at a Park.
Also got to sit and talk with Jennie for awhile that was fun, well its always fun to do that!
So pretty much the best weekend.
Found out some juicy news about some sleezy beezy's! :D

P.s I hope when I have kids they aren't douche bags.

P.s also Vegas soon with Zac, that will be hella exciting.

Speak loud, speak soft, speak anything you want. Just don't use your tongue against me..

"Same old day same old thoughts, over and over again they repeat like a broken record, where did I go wrong?"

Today was a good day so far I still have one event left to do today we will see how that concert goes, to me does not sound like to much fun but you know It's always nice to support your friends no matter how long its been since you've talked to them. Athletics was a bummer at first cause we couldn't go swimming but it got better. Class was full of excitement, singing songs during the six minute lift, laughing while wrestling jeff and hearing Austin and Zac scream loudly. There we were practicing a drill and the fire drill went off it was pretty funny because Dance Co. Was in the swimming pool and had to clear out, all the wrestlers just laughed. While sitting out there I found my self sitting next to carlos looking at clouds, I can't tell you the last time I sat there watching clouds. We also talked about this Bailey girl Sheldon is all goo-goo over, but hell you like who you like right? More and more I find myself wondering what people think and say about me, always been something I've thought about but I just try to ignore that. I miss wrestling every day but I know when season comes around I will be like what the hell was I thinking.
Well thats for now, I hope today gets better, it should be fun later seeing Brett and Zac they're always a fun bunch a kids to hangout with espicially Brett!
Now if only that boy would wrestle!

Woah finnaly a song I can relate to, a song thats always described my thoughts.
"When I was a boy
I didn't care 'bout a thing
It was me and this world and a broken dream
I was blaming myself
for all that was going wrong

I was way out there
on the wrong side of town
and the ones that I loved
I started pushing 'em out
then I realised
That it was all my fault


I've been looking for a lifeline
for what seems like a lifetime
I'm drowning in the pain
breaking down again
looking for a lifeline

So I put out my hand
and I asked for some help
we tore down the walls I built around myself
I was struck by the light
and I fell to the ground"

life line-papa roach

One month

"At times I find myself wondering if it is all worth it, I feel like I take one step forward and then two steps back..."


"Sometimes I find myself wondering why everything seems to just repeat itself, maybe thats just something we all deal with every now and then but latley that has been on my mind. Overall I think this was a good school year, learned some good things, lost some friends, for better or for worst sitll remains unsaid."

Today started off good. To me it's a special day it marks the one month mark until I goto Vegas with Zac for a wrestling camp. As the days wind down I'm looking forward to it more and more. I just can't wait to get on the mat again its been to long and I can think of no better way to start off the summer then to be wrestling with my buddy Zac. There is also a little less then a month left of school. I am looking forward to that a lot as well, it gets me closer to my birthday to where I will be able to start drving :) Latley I've been getting bored of everything I usually do, feels like the same routine over and over again. My music choice has changed a lot latley I have been exposed to some new good bands ever since I first heard punk goes crunk, a great album I must say. Nothing like hearing your favorite songs in punk. I went to Chillies which is usally where I hang out with Zac at. Me and Zac were sitting at my house watching don't mess with a Zohan, so we decided after that we were hungry so we called our buddy Austin to come with us and he agreed to come. After Chillies they ran me home while they went to this school play thing I wonder how that went, something I've never really been into latley.


Tomorrow is a new day filled with new oppurtunities like anyother day that's always something good to look forward to, I hope I get my fun back, its been gone for far to long. Athletics is what I'm really looking forward to, that class is always fun with all the wrestlers, we are a crazy bunch. Tomorrow is also a junior high dance concert, I can't say I'm really looking forward to that, those things can sometimes be boring but who knows! :)

Well my first blogging attempt is done, maybe I will stick with this, I have a bad habbit of sticking with stuff. I have to enjoy it a lot to stick with it and at least get a good feeling outta it, well until next time!